Tonight I began with Deuteronomy 32:15ff. Verse 20, “…I will hide my face from them,” struck me especially. I didn’t want my Father to hide His face from me, so I sought Him, lovingly and longingly. I humbled myself, confessed the pride involved in my “Wonder Woman” syndrome (1), and asked His forgiveness and healing.

Verse 36, “Surely, the Lord shall do justice for his people; on his servants he shall have pity. When he sees their strength failing…” brought further admissions of my weakness and prayers for strength in His service.

I moved on to Hosea 11. Verse 4, “I fostered them like one who raises an infant to his cheeks;” led me to a full surrender of myself to Him. I just emptied myself out to Him and asked Him to take care of me as He would a little child.

The situation in Isaiah 9:11ff seemed so much like the world today. It led me to intercessory prayer for my Father to manifest Himself in the world so that more might come to know, love, and serve Him. I asked Him, too, to help me be His instrument—only a wiser one than I have been lately!

Listen! That was the message that rang out to me from Jeremiah 7:12ff, and so I prayed for the grace of listening more attentively and humbly.

I came away from the prayer period refreshed. I know my Father has begun to heal me of the fatigue I’ve been experiencing. He also pressed one thought on me very strongly: Love your neighbor as yourself. By that I know I must cooperate with Him and take better care of myself. I must put away my pride and admit, when needed, that I’m just not as physically strong as other people. (2)

(1) Current comment: This is my propensity to not accept my own limitations as a disabled person.

(2) Spiritual director: Admission of yourself as not perfect in every way will help (maybe) with your fear of being thought a fraud.