I began tonight by meditating a while on St. Joseph. I asked my Father what it was about him that made him worthy to be foster-father to the Son of God. My Father answered by showing me that Joseph had made room in himself for Him. He wasn’t all filled up with himself.

My Father showed Himself to me, through Psalm 84, as the source of all that is good and worthwhile. Union with Him is the only worthy goal in our lives. Trying to latch on to anything else is as futile as trying to retain a snowflake in my hand.

I asked my Father, then, to show me why people chase after other goals. I’ve done it myself, but looking back, I can’t imagine why I did it. The answer is basically pride, and my Father showed me the various manifestations of it.

John 3:19 tells us that people love darkness more than light. I asked my Father why this is so. Pride is a spiraling inward. The more we consider ourselves, the more power we give to Satan, who drives us further into ourselves. Love is a spiraling outward toward God and others. To our flawed nature, the inward spiraling looks more beneficial to us. However, this is an illusion. What appears to be best for us really only leads us deeper into slavery and the loss of spiritual life. (1)

Through Hosea 8 and Psalm 81, my Father showed me that people want to do things their own way. It seems better for them than God’s way. Again, it is self-centered pride.

Genesis 2 and 3 show that humans want to be more powerful than they are. They want to think of themselves as the greatest there is—pride at work again. (2)

(1) Spiritual director: Good insight.

(2) Spiritual director: God and you are really becoming close. It seems He can feel free to do whatever He wants to with you and He seems to know you would understand and say “yes” in advance.

Please stay very open. I feel your life together is just beginning and that there will be much, much more of His sharing with you. He has barely started with some simple sharings and healings. And He has more to pour out on you. Stay as open and loving as possible.